Today was typically normal with my doctor coming in later than appointment time but good thing is most new cases are block for half an hour appointment. So the delay wasn't that bad.
Operation was pretty smooth and I managed to get my stiches right. It definitely look way better than my previous stich and the patient's flesh was surprisingly smooth for stiching. But I hope I am never gonna to do it on her again cause I learnt that its her 2nd operation.
Lunch, restocking of supplies in clinic, seeing patient in dayward before discharge and tidying up doctor's room.
The last part was rewarding cause one of the doctor's consultation room have lots of food, tidbits, hamper given by fellow doctors or even patients. So most of the staff get to have some of those back home since the doctor replied to our message saying he does not want it.
Heheheheheee. Hurray for that part.
Didn't really study japanese ard enough yst.
But I manage to have myself out from laziness before 10 to get myself ready for bed.
Gotta do better.
Re-doing the same mistake again yesterday evening to night.
I will not deny I like watching brainless show on tv.
I should had use my time to study japanese more and stop texting people around to kill boredom.
I slept after 10pm yesterday and now I feel so tired again.
Say no to child-like acts!
Now its midnight, and I am sorting out my thoughts for the day.
I strted my day busy and tired.
Usual clinic in the morning but with both doctors needing to use the same room for ultrasound machine was exhausting the clinic staffs.
After which, was an ot case of 2 hours which extended to nearly 3.5 hours. 12 bilateral breast lumps.
My energy drained fast for doing retractions and lucky thing, I need not have to stich. My arms were sore with my thighs still sore from the exercise on sunday. And my finger are stiffed for holding the retractors.
I wanted to skip the 4.30pm operation of mastectomy and ask my colleague to assist the doctor instead. However, I still went ahead. Reason being, I have responsibility to do it and none seems to be available for me to suggest that to happen.
I think it is good that I already voiced out to my manager that I will not do any case from 5pm or after.
The very next good thing that I did was to talk and be really gossipy with my friends who I knew in polytechnic today. I always eat my food and hardly ask about their life. I am glad I do changes. Definitely a good start for me since a change is a must and very necessary for me. I don't want people to tell me about not socialising well. Start with close friends then friends and extend to even strangers perhaps.
There is no limit in my life.
I had always been a little girl in almost all my relationships.
Family, friends, anyone and everyone in exact.
I asked my friend today, whats wrong with me?
Ting said, talk no action. Think no action.
I was upset with that reply but honestly, that's me.
Time to grow up, little girl.
Do what you say you want to do.
Stop feeling afraid, it is costing you harm.
Stop feeling lazy, that's not what you want to become.
Let's do it.
2015, start of growing up.
